it dawned on me the other day that i have faith. i have faith that i have faith. that faith lies in multiple things that i don't feel the need to explain. but, after years of trying to find a calculated way to attain faith, which then led to me giving up completely... suddenly, it's something i just possess. proof that sometimes it is something you just have wait for; something you have to allow to gradually manifest itself in you (for those of us who have yet to witness a bible-style miracle.) this is exciting to me. i never want to stop growing.