22 July 2009

"You cannot protect yourself from sadness without protecting yourself from happiness."

i'm re-reading Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close, and loving every minute of it.

19 July 2009


1. camping
2. santamonica pier
3. dancing
4. rocky horror picture show
5. picnic
6. beach day alone
7. bonfire

these are things i need to do before the end of the summer. preferably more than once. i feel stagnant and i hate it and i need to be proactive in changing that. there are many more things i could add to the list, but those things require money. money that i still don't have because i am still unemployed. there is a glimmer of hope on the horizon however, and i hope it comes through. (jobwise) im trying to learn how to soak in every moment, and to stop needing another person to soak these moments in in their entirety.

05 July 2009


That was the most amazing 4th of July I have ever had!

01 July 2009


-fired from job
-newfound domestic tendencies
-pool visits and browning skin
-feeling pointless
-closure that i didn't want
-histerical laughter with roommates
-letting go when all of me is resisting
-puppy coming soon
-jamie leaving soon
-hollyn coming soon
-rearranged furniture
-perpetually black feet
-too many ciggarettes