that thing is happening that happens to leon sometimes. im so overwhelmed and stressed out that i can barely even think or process or articulate. my brain hurts and feels numb. what am i even doing. how do i even know whats right; is there a right or a wrong? where did all of this even start? i cant make a decision for shit. what is wrong with me. or right.
how do i find answers within myself to make these really big decisions when i am such a cloudy mess? dont tell me to pray about it.